Christmas Wishlist UPDATES! :)

"Be careful what you wished for, cause you just might get it..."

And hell yeah I DID! :D remember my Christmas wishlist? Well, my 6th wish (special call from someone) did come true :) yeyy! 

I have mentioned on my first post that I met someone online who is very very special. He lives in New Jersey, studies in Philadelphia (stopped last Summer quarter but will return this Fall quarter). We have so many things alike, and we have been talking for several months already, either through YM, FB, Skype :) Plain chat, video chat, voice chat everything :) We never get bored of each other, we can talk like almost everything even boring stuffs and still enjoy every minute of it. We have exactly 12 hour difference which is so awful. That's why I can feel his sincerity because most of the time when I don't have classes, we chat from 9 am to 12mn on my end (9pm to 12 nn on his end). Anyway, it might sound that we're having a crazy relationship right now, but we dont. Well I think we're almost there, but I'm not thinking about it now, I'm just enjoying every second of it :)

I just came from school yesterday, got into a crazy blazing argument with my professor (bitch.) and I was ready to take a quick nap, when my cellphone rang.

(not verbatim, just how I remembered it)
*ring *ring (lol thats not my ring tone though :P)
Me: *looked at cp, felt really weird seeing an unregistered and a fairly long number compared to Philippine's normal mobile numbers.
Me: err.. who's this? *nervous
J: hey V, what's up?
Me: J?
J: Of course it's me! Can't even recognize my voice? :(
Me: Well, I have to make sure that it's really you. Did something happen? Why are you calling me on my phone?
J: Nothing, I just want to talk to you. Talking to you on the phone kinda feels like we're a bit closer than we did on Skype. Don't you want me to call you? and don't be surprised that I know your number, you posted your number on Skype.
Me: but wouldn't this cost a lot for you?
J: So what? I want to talk to you. If I have all the money in the world, I'd book a plane there right at this very instant. But for now, I can only afford international calls. But heck we gotta make every second counts! I was meaning to say this to you yesterday, but I reckon I have to do it the best way possible. So, the reason why I called you is because I've got to say... I... wait why am I blushing crazy? hahaha, I'm freaking nervous right now!
Me: Hahaha oh but why are you nervous?
J: Because I want to say... I think I'm feeling a lot more than like for you. Yes, a lot more than just regular 'like'.
Me: awww *blush
J: Just awww? hahahaha! V, that took a lot of courage for me to say itt :))
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Well, the call went for more than 30 minutes I guess, I dont know how much he'd pay for that though :))) But I made sure every second really did count. And I dont know why, but him calling me on my cellphone is way different when we are just using video or vioce chat. I mean different in a super good way. Why is that?

Oh 1 Christmas wish down! :) I am just so happy right now that my 6th wish did come true. I mean, its not that really hard to actually happen, just that I am not expecting that J would be the one to make it real for me <3

Hahaha, it's funny, I felt like a little teenager again because of that :))

Till next post!

-V-

-PS- sorry I haven't posted for a while, I was just so busy with school :P

FO and Early Christmas Wishlist part 2

ugh... it's been a few days since my last post. Im just so freakin' busy with school works :| Oh well, this is supposedly the 2nd part of my Christmas wishlist, but first I got to tell what happened with my ex-friend. Well, a day after she told everyone my secret, I received a message from her on fb saying that she's so sorry for what happened. And that's just it. No explanations whatsoever. I was so pissed off. I mean she could have at least called me to say sorry, or just say why she did that. I could have forgiven her easily if she did so. But no, she just said sorry. I may be lame for not accepting that sorry, but I'm always like that, the word sorry is not enough for me. Yesterday she came up with me, and just hugged me and cried her eyes out. She's a really touchy and emotional person, so I expected this to happen. But what pissed me off is that she did this in the middle of the crowd, where everyone can see. Like she's seeking sympathy of other people. I was so furious, I want to push her off, but I can't because I don't want everyone to think I'm being a brat. But hey ex-friend, you could have just pulled me aside and say sorry and hug me and everything would be okay. I am telling you, I might have forgiven you but I'm in no way forgetting this. Ugh... I hate this feeling. 

Anyway, so this is the second part of my wishlist :)

6. A phone call from someone special. Hahaha this might be lame, but when I think about it, the last time I received a special call from someone was like almost a year ago :)) And when I say special call it meant like a good long convo, just catching up on each other. Not a necessity call. Definitely not a booty call. Just you know, like, "hey V i missed you, what's up?". All the calls I've been receiving lately are school or organization related. Oh, I've been getting calls from my family too, but those are more, "What time will you be home?". hahaha or my friends' hang out call " HEYY dude! come over now! Over and Out!" hahaha :) The special call from someone special that I wish need not be romantic. Just a good long convo is fine with me :)

7. I asked my close guy friend, "What do you want for Christmas?". He answered, "All I need for Christmas... is love". So for my 7th wish, I hope he'd find love before Christmas :))

for the next numbers.... er.... i dunno, I haven't thought about them yet :P till next time :D

-V-

Tangled Priorities in Life

So this would be my first blog ever :) I'm not really the writer type so some of you may wonder why am I here writing a blog. Well, one reason is because I'm bored. And primarily because I want to let loose some emotions that I'm currently trying to suppress right now.

 Boredom....

The thing is, I have so many things to do. Paper work, laboratory work, all for my thesis. I'm supposed to graduate this October. But... tsk... I don't know I really don't have the drive to start on my thesis. I have a thesis topic but I can't seem to properly arrange my scientific thoughts properly right now (now means "this semester"). *sigh I actually am not happy with what I am doing right now. We just had 4 days off from school (long weekend yeyyyy!) but all I did was stay OL in Facebook and play FB games and chat with people :| I really hate myself! I need someone to bump me on the head right now. My mom kept asking me about the progress of my thesis. sheesh, every time she asks me that, I always feel awful. I felt like I'm letting my family down. :( Every time I think about that, I'd be like - Hey I've got to work my ass off now!- which always ends as thoughts. No action. Damn. Last semester, I'm very much motivated. I'm among those in my class who finished pre-thesis early. I'm just so inspired to work hard so I could graduate now. I don't know what happened after that. Well, somehow I know I really am distracted...

Distraction...

I met a guy online. I KNOW LAME! hahahaha :)) I know this is stupid, and if you're wondering, I'm no NBSB, I've been in relationships before. Serious relationships. So this actually came as a shock for me. You know, to develop feelings for this dude :)) hahahaha Okay, so this guy lives like on the total opposite side of the Earth for me. He's from US, I'm from Philippines. DAMN. 12 hour difference. DAMN. hahaha it's funny how we are very similar. His personality is just like mine. really really childish too hahaha :) it's actually freaky how we're similar in so many ways, like birthday, number of past relationship, fave book, fave movies :)) i know it's really stupid. I kept saying to myself how stupid it really is. how stupid I am. But I don't know, my feeling's not cooperating. I'm falling for him, and I'm falling hard. He actually told me how much he feels for me. *sigh so how could this actually work if he's oceans and mountains away from me? Well, I'm planning to take masters degree in US sooooo :D hahaha I hope we could really make it. <3

Knowing that I want to go to US so bad because of him and one way for me to actually do so is to take my MS there, I'm still confused why I'm not motivated to graduate this semester. Why oh why? :(

*sigh it's really awful that I can't discuss this to anyone, not even to my best friends. :(
anyway, I'll write again next time for updates regarding my thesis and my lovelife :P